Just a few weeks ago, I deleted an article on my desktop, entitled ‘anxiety’. The wonders of modern computers means that file still exists, and reading it today, I note that it was penned in September. 

I can’t remember what was happening in September that made me feel that way, to write about how I was feeling then, but I know I deleted it those few weeks ago while cleaning up my desktop because everything in my life was so wonderful, I couldn’t imagine even finishing it.

My history with anxiety goes way back to my early teen years – I’m pretty much a textbook case. And as with any textbook anxiety case, it never really goes away.

So now here I am, almost nine months later, wondering where I went wrong and why I am currently experiencing a new bout of anxiety – one that feels worse than all the others put together.

My brain won’t stop thinking, and I constantly have the shakes. My body temperature won’t regulate itself and my appetite is all but non-existent. My thought patterns go from worrying about little things that don’t matter, to what will be happening in my life five, ten and fifty years from now.

If you too are a sufferer of anxiety, know you are not alone. 1 in 4 of us will suffer, and no matter how good your life might be, it’s okay that you are feeling this way, and there is help to be had.

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/
1300 22 4636